Fuck the haters.👍👍

I've finally did it! One long explicit post for all the haters!
Lately I've been abused in school for the music I listen to and I've had enough.. No one can tell me what to wear or eat and especially what music to like.
I am who I am and I won't change for anybody, Even if it meant them going against me, I say bring.It.On.
I hope all of my friendlist on facebook see this, because they've all been mean to me when it comes to this point. But I don't care anymore and I'm ready to shout it out loud "YOU'RE NEVER GONNA CHANGE ME"

And I advise everyone who's going through the same thing,being abused and made fun of, not just in school but in home or the gym or work or any  place to stand up for yourself and don't let anyone change you, because you are beautiful the way you are.

Dear Suicidal..

Dear Suicidal,

I know how you feel, from the bottom of my heart. I've been there, a suicidal, but my friend's death opened my eyes when she took her own life, 3 years ago. I now know that life is worth it..

I know you question this all the time. "Is life really worth it? Am I just a waste of space? Is it worth existing even though you wanna disappear? Is it worth it when all you can think of is locking yourself in your room and hurting yourself over and over again?" .. I know it's hard to believe, but yes, it's worth it. 

You my friend are worth it. So throw away your razor blade and fight against the temptation. I need you to fight, please. Every time I hear about someone suiciding my heart breaks into million pieces..No one deserves to end their lives. No matter how dark or bad it is. 

Why won't you understand, that there is a bright side. There is, I promise, it's right there, all you have to do is look. No matter how much darkness is surrounding you..

And cutting won't help..Those scars will haunt you every time you look at them. They'll never leave your skin. At the end, all they'll do is remind you how miserable your life used to be. You shouldn't feel like you have to mutilate your skin every time you get upset. You're stronger than this, I know you are. I don't want you hurting yourself ever again. I know you think you're worthless, but you're not. You were brought into this life for a purpose. And you have to be strong. Don't let anyone trigger you into harming yourself or killing yourself....You can stop all this mess.

Yes, yes you can. I believe in you. You don't deserve to be hurt like this. Protect your body..Each one of you is an amazing human being that deserves to be happy, and it's up to you. Because in the end, you're the one to decide whether you wanna be happy or depressed. Suicidal or a warrior.

So please, don't hurt yourself..And know that I at least care about you so much..

( I wish I'd got a chance to say this to you, Alex..I'm not mad at you anymore..I love you so much and I will never forget you.)

Note: After what happened to Alex, I kept the razor blade I took from her the days she used to cut, and attached it to a chain. A part of her is still with me and I will hold on to it for many years to come...

I've got talent.

So uh basically this is my drawing of my hero Oliver Sykes [BMTH]
It's still not quite finished YET. I left the hair to the end 'cause it's kinda frustrating!
I just hope you guys like it so far! I'll definitely share it when it's completely 100% done!

My dream is that Oliver gets to see this..I've worked so hard on it, took me like four hours, since it's by far my first 'realistic' drawing. And I'm actually surprised I can draw to this level!

P.S Leave your opinions and suggestions :'3 I'd like that!:'*

Stand Tall and Work Work Work!

Let's say I'm out of inspiration 'cause I've just woken up and I hadn't been sleeping well. I can almost feel my head throbbing but I just gotta make a point before I forget what I had in mind, like usual.

I'M JUST SO SAD.
I missed Warped Tour again. It's not my fault it's always held in impossible places, I just wish for once they'd make it close to where I live, I'm dying to meet my idols, Sleeping With Sirens, Pierce The Veil, Black Veil Brides and oh, of course, Bring Me The Horizon. You've got NO idea what I'll do just to see Oliver Sykes in his own flesh and blood! Recently, I became very attached to him, probably because his songs make me cry uncontrollably. It's just so honest and touching, like he can dig deep in you and pull out all of your buried emotions. I don't know what I'll do without BMTH. 

I've been even writing this long letter for Oli if I ever get to meet him...

Another point to make clear here, I HATE PEOPLE JUDGING ME FOR WHAT I LIKE.

Like, they have no right to judge me or hate on me for liking those bands/music or even digging men with piercings and tattoos. It's my personality, it's what I LIKE so deal with it?! So what if I'm not into cute little boys with bangs and striped t-shirts? And what if I like men with tattoos all over their bodies and piercings?

Let's be honest though, they're hotter, though most of the people won't admit it. 

I just think everyone should stick to their opinion and fight for it. Don't let others judge you or make fun of you or even try to change your mind about what YOU like. In these cases, raise your middle finger and make it clear that you don't give a shit about what they think as long as you're content with it.

Bullying should stop. No one's better than the other, just because some people are pampered and petted by their parents and spoilt with money doesn't mean they can pick on poorer, quiet people. Just stop. They don't have the right. Fight against them and show them what you're capable of. I'm not talking about fighting or even getting to a point where you'd hurt someone, No, I'm saying use your brain. Outsmart them and then when you've accomplished something big in your life and maybe just maybe affected other people with it, you'll be the one standing tall laughing at them. 

Never give in, Work work work. Make yourself noticeable. Worthy. Make your own name. Let the world know you exist. You can all make something great out of the simplest things. 

You have my encouragement to begin with. So push yourself up and keep going.

Forget the haters and be who you are.

and never forget, ALWAYS FORGIVE.

                            Sleeping With Sirens;Kellin Quinn.

Never Judge before Listening.❤

Do you know what really bothers me?

Judgement and Arrogance. Especially when it comes to music, since music is now practically my life..

So the thing is, people shouldn't be comparing music to one another and saying 'My music is better than your music' or 'My band is better than your band' because generally everyone has his own taste and you can't control what he likes. 

Secondly, I hate it when people 'judge' a band because of their looks BEFORE listening to their music?! What tells you it's a bad band if you haven't killed your pride and JUST listened? I mean, I killed mine and listened and I don't regret a thing. I was a directioner when I started actually taking music a bit more serious, I only limited myself with music that plays on the radio and not bothering taking a shot and trying another genres. But one day I did. On youtube, I listened to Black Veil Brides. Firstly their look was kinda..New. But when I listened to them I fell in love and soon I was into Bring Me The Horizon and others. And lets say, I didn't like 1D at all anymore.

Once you listen to rock/metal/pop music it's hard to go back to 'soft' songs.

And truthfully, their songs hold so much spirit and meaning than any other songs. It's quite weird how the society actually prefers artists like Lady GaGa and Nicki Minaj over something that's actually more descent. Like really, most artists today are typical and easy to predict. While bands like Pierce the veil always surprise you. 

My only wish, is people to listen. Just that. Listen. It wouldn't kill. Oh and of course not to judge so quickly.

I had a friend once, she was a directioner like me and I decided to introduce her to My bands. Firstly, she thought they were creepy until she listened and now she's one hell of an SWS fan! Haha! I guess I nailed it! And of course I kept going until my brother too became a huge BVB obsessor. 

Do you know how I did that? Well, it took me only 10 minutes and three BVB songs. And PAW! haha!

You should try it. Just don't force it.

And forget about the preppy haters, I bet there's a lot at school, because I know the feel.  DON'T let them judge you based on how you look or your taste in music, you're not existed to make them like you. Actually, be proud. They're the losers who listen to meaningless songs.

I don't see how Nicki Minaj could make a better idol than lets say, Black Veil Brides or Tokio Hotel.

It's just a weird, racial society we live in and YOU need to hang in there and stick to what YOU think makes you feel good. Because in the end you've only got yourself..And God of course.

So never Back down ❤

"Never Give In, Never Back Down, When your life feels lost, fight against all odds!" -Black Veil Brides;Never Give In.

вαη∂ѕ тнαт ѕαved мe.♥

I've finally got the energy to make a blog about those bands who ѕαved мy lιғe. And some of them are: Tokio Hotel, Black Veil Brides, Bring Me The Horizon, Sleeping With Sirens..etc

To some of you, they may just be a normal band..Normal probably annoying people who make screamo songs. But to me and to others, they're our нeroes and ѕαvιoυrѕ. Their songs take us to a whole new other world. A world of our own, where no one is judged or classified, hurt or betrayed..This world makes us feel better about ourselves and pushes us to continue and struggle against the darkness of reality to reach safety.
It makes us feel ѕαƒє and not alone.

Those songs advice you, encourage you, push you to hang on. I could listen to them for hours and days and weeks without getting a tiny bit bored. It's like ғood to our ѕσυℓѕ.

My life as a teenager could be as pretty much as yours. Family problems, bullying, hatred, betrayal, fakes, death, pain, loneliness, negligence and so on. But in all this darkness, those knights come to pull you back to light. Their words and their lyrics pierce into your heart, making you stronger in the face of everything.
They gave me something very important I thought I'd lost it a long time ago, ѕelғ-coɴғιdeɴce.

I'll never forget those days, on which my family had huge fights, my friends ignored me and I'd simply lock myself in my room for hours listening to those legends..They gave me the power to мσνє ση.♥ And to never let anyone judge me based on their own taste. Even my own mother sometimes..

Some of you will probably think I'm exaggerating. Well I'm not. And guess what? I still can't even express my love and respect for them even with those words but I've tried to do my best..They're just beyond everything..And if I go deaf one day, I'll know it's because of the many hours I spent plugging those earphones in my ears and losing myself in their music..

They Make Me SO HAPPY.❤ And I'm so glad they came into my life even when everything seemed impossible..

''I swear these words are true. I believe in you
I'll never let you down
I promise right here. Right now
I won't let you down'' -Black Veil Brides; Let you down.

That's all I can say so far, it's late now and I don't know many English words to express my gratitude even more because I'm German, so if there's any grammar mistakes, forgive me. ♥

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