Concerts

It sucks being one of those people who don’t get a chance to go to a concert so you’d always just sit there listening to your ipod and watching concerts online and crying over your shitty luck and the scariest part is that you’ll grow up, marry and have children, then one day when you’re driving them off from school you open the radio to a classic rock station that announces the break up of one of your favorite bands when you were a teenage and you realize that most of them are old now and some have retired and you’re just sitting there cursing your life for not letting you go to a fucking concert and meet your heroes.

Stay Strong; You're not alone (♥)

" if you ever felt alone, if you ever felt rejected, if you ever felt confused, if you ever felt lost, if you ever felt anxious, if you ever felt wrong, if you ever felt wronged, if you ever felt unclean, if you ever felt angry, if you ever felt ashamed, if you ever felt curious, if you ever felt used. " - My Chemical Romance.

Know you're not alone.

I bet most of the time you wonder, why your life is so meaningless, why doesn't anybody like you or share your interests, why you are neglected and ignored, why you are so worthless, why you're made fun of, why you are abused, why you self harm, why you are suicidal, why you are alienated, why you have no friends, why you are so empty .. 

Firstly, YOU ARE A UNIQUE PERSON and you're beautiful. Yes, yes you are. The outside is just an empty shell, what matters is what is on the inside, that's the real you, that's where your beauty really lies. 

Secondly, you're not alone. All those feelings you have, all those problems and depression and self harm or whatever you're going through. Please remember, it's not just you. There are thousands maybe millions of teenagers suffering what you're going through. And I'm one of them. I've been suffering from major depressive disorder for two years now, i had this one friend i lost because of other kids telling her how she should stop talking to me because i'm weird and a loser. Every day my mom screams at me and hits me for practically no reason. I self harm, I even have suicidal thoughts now and then. I'm even writing this at my aunt's house because my mom kicked me out. She simply said she doesn't want me anymore. But I'm not letting that affect me, I am fighting.

I said this to make you know, that you're not the only one suffering. 

I know that "Life gets better and you'll be okay" sounds as a lie to you all of the time, but if you don't fight to make those words come true, then you have nothing. No matter how shitty and fucked up your life is, it does get better only if you fight.  

Remember that you have friends and family, try to be open and talk out what's bothering you to the most person you know who won't judge you or hurt you. Those people can make the healing process 100% more easier. Talk to a friend you trust or a family member and if you have no person to go to, counselling always helps. I started going to sessions two days ago and talked everything out and it made me feel so much better, just letting all the negative emotions and thoughts suppressed inside fly out. 

" I promise you, I felt so hopeless and I know you do too, but I promise you guys a thousand times, that recovery is really possible, you can get through this, you can over come it whatever your issue may be. "

fucking forget the haters. You see, some people, this fucked up society they want you dead. They want you to give up and hurt yourself  because some of them are cruel with no heart. They're the type of people that feed on others' suffering and misery, but in the end they achieve nothing. Because hate never gets you anywhere and if you hurt yourself you're just losing to them and they'll simply move to somebody else to torture when you break down. So don't. Stay strong and keep your head up so the crown won't fall and walk forward, because I believe you can do anything. 

And one of the biggest evidence that life gets better are idols. Those people who we look up too. Just think about it, stop whatever you're doing for a moment and think, why are they your idols? Why do they mean so much to you? Why do you look up to them so much? And i'm sure 80% would say the same thing.

"They had the same past, same problems and they made it through." or "They achieved what i'm trying to achiever or who i wanna be in the future." And that gives you hope to move along, and push through everything to become like them. 

Some of my idols that's inspired me to be the strong person I am today are Vic Fuentes, Austin Carlile, Oli Sykes, Kellin Quinn, Chris Motionless even Eminem. They all went through shit from self harm to bullying to losing a loved one to not being accepted to have a broken home to anxiety attacks to drugs, everything! 

But look at them now.  They didn't give up to their circumstances, they battled against them and won, they used all that sadness and anger and hurt and suffering into creating something beautiful. Art. 

They dropped the blade and picked up the pen. And just from this simple decision, they changed the life of millions.

There are so many things you can look up to and admire that'll give you the strength you need and in the process. You have to convince yourself to stay positive and push away all the negative. That's the only way you'll succeed. 

I'm crossing my fingers for all of you, because you're all special and unique people who have a great life ahead of you and I know you have the will within you. (♥) 

вαη∂ѕ тнαт ѕαved мe.♥

I've finally got the energy to make a blog about those bands who ѕαved мy lιғe. And some of them are: Tokio Hotel, Black Veil Brides, Bring Me The Horizon, Sleeping With Sirens..etc

To some of you, they may just be a normal band..Normal probably annoying people who make screamo songs. But to me and to others, they're our нeroes and ѕαvιoυrѕ. Their songs take us to a whole new other world. A world of our own, where no one is judged or classified, hurt or betrayed..This world makes us feel better about ourselves and pushes us to continue and struggle against the darkness of reality to reach safety.
It makes us feel ѕαƒє and not alone.

Those songs advice you, encourage you, push you to hang on. I could listen to them for hours and days and weeks without getting a tiny bit bored. It's like ғood to our ѕσυℓѕ.

My life as a teenager could be as pretty much as yours. Family problems, bullying, hatred, betrayal, fakes, death, pain, loneliness, negligence and so on. But in all this darkness, those knights come to pull you back to light. Their words and their lyrics pierce into your heart, making you stronger in the face of everything.
They gave me something very important I thought I'd lost it a long time ago, ѕelғ-coɴғιdeɴce.

I'll never forget those days, on which my family had huge fights, my friends ignored me and I'd simply lock myself in my room for hours listening to those legends..They gave me the power to мσνє ση.♥ And to never let anyone judge me based on their own taste. Even my own mother sometimes..

Some of you will probably think I'm exaggerating. Well I'm not. And guess what? I still can't even express my love and respect for them even with those words but I've tried to do my best..They're just beyond everything..And if I go deaf one day, I'll know it's because of the many hours I spent plugging those earphones in my ears and losing myself in their music..

They Make Me SO HAPPY.❤ And I'm so glad they came into my life even when everything seemed impossible..

''I swear these words are true. I believe in you
I'll never let you down
I promise right here. Right now
I won't let you down'' -Black Veil Brides; Let you down.

That's all I can say so far, it's late now and I don't know many English words to express my gratitude even more because I'm German, so if there's any grammar mistakes, forgive me. ♥

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