Be Yourself

So, I was walking in the mall the other day with my cousin and I had my Black Veil Brides shirt on. I kinda felt uneasy and like scared and kept hiding my shirt.. I guess I felt a bit insecure that people are gonna judge me on what I wear and I don't know I guess I was afraid of that. But like in the end I realized that I'm just covering what I love and what defines my personality, my likes and I hated that so I stopped hiding.
A realization hit me.

Why are most of us afraid of showing who we really are. Like, that shirt says what I like, who I am as a teenage so I shouldn't be embarrassed by it? I'm not sure "embarrassed" is the right word but it kinda describes the moment. And when I stopped hiding it, I felt kinda strong or something like I'm in control and I won't let my thoughts get the best of me. So practically what happened is that I shut that little voice in the back of my head that always keeps me caged in my insecurities. And although it's kind of an insignificant situation but it did make me learn something and that's the whole point.

You shouldn't be ashamed of who you are or what you like and stuff because that's what defines you as a person, I mean that's how you were born and you should embrace that. Nobody's like the other. Every person is different and if someone is making fun of someone else just because he differs from him then that person is a loser and simple-minded.

So, basically be who you are and unleash yourself and never let anyone put you down, don't even let your own self put you down, because you are all amazing human beings!



By the way, I got a couple of compliments on my shirt.. Oh yeah ;)

life worth the struggle

100 Reasons to Stay Alive~Just a friendly reminder in case you had forgotten all of the wonderful little things that makes life worth the struggle

Dear Suicidal..

Dear Suicidal,

I know how you feel, from the bottom of my heart. I've been there, a suicidal, but my friend's death opened my eyes when she took her own life, 3 years ago. I now know that life is worth it..

I know you question this all the time. "Is life really worth it? Am I just a waste of space? Is it worth existing even though you wanna disappear? Is it worth it when all you can think of is locking yourself in your room and hurting yourself over and over again?" .. I know it's hard to believe, but yes, it's worth it. 

You my friend are worth it. So throw away your razor blade and fight against the temptation. I need you to fight, please. Every time I hear about someone suiciding my heart breaks into million pieces..No one deserves to end their lives. No matter how dark or bad it is. 

Why won't you understand, that there is a bright side. There is, I promise, it's right there, all you have to do is look. No matter how much darkness is surrounding you..

And cutting won't help..Those scars will haunt you every time you look at them. They'll never leave your skin. At the end, all they'll do is remind you how miserable your life used to be. You shouldn't feel like you have to mutilate your skin every time you get upset. You're stronger than this, I know you are. I don't want you hurting yourself ever again. I know you think you're worthless, but you're not. You were brought into this life for a purpose. And you have to be strong. Don't let anyone trigger you into harming yourself or killing yourself....You can stop all this mess.

Yes, yes you can. I believe in you. You don't deserve to be hurt like this. Protect your body..Each one of you is an amazing human being that deserves to be happy, and it's up to you. Because in the end, you're the one to decide whether you wanna be happy or depressed. Suicidal or a warrior.

So please, don't hurt yourself..And know that I at least care about you so much..

( I wish I'd got a chance to say this to you, Alex..I'm not mad at you anymore..I love you so much and I will never forget you.)

Note: After what happened to Alex, I kept the razor blade I took from her the days she used to cut, and attached it to a chain. A part of her is still with me and I will hold on to it for many years to come...

Stand Tall and Work Work Work!

Let's say I'm out of inspiration 'cause I've just woken up and I hadn't been sleeping well. I can almost feel my head throbbing but I just gotta make a point before I forget what I had in mind, like usual.

I'M JUST SO SAD.
I missed Warped Tour again. It's not my fault it's always held in impossible places, I just wish for once they'd make it close to where I live, I'm dying to meet my idols, Sleeping With Sirens, Pierce The Veil, Black Veil Brides and oh, of course, Bring Me The Horizon. You've got NO idea what I'll do just to see Oliver Sykes in his own flesh and blood! Recently, I became very attached to him, probably because his songs make me cry uncontrollably. It's just so honest and touching, like he can dig deep in you and pull out all of your buried emotions. I don't know what I'll do without BMTH. 

I've been even writing this long letter for Oli if I ever get to meet him...

Another point to make clear here, I HATE PEOPLE JUDGING ME FOR WHAT I LIKE.

Like, they have no right to judge me or hate on me for liking those bands/music or even digging men with piercings and tattoos. It's my personality, it's what I LIKE so deal with it?! So what if I'm not into cute little boys with bangs and striped t-shirts? And what if I like men with tattoos all over their bodies and piercings?

Let's be honest though, they're hotter, though most of the people won't admit it. 

I just think everyone should stick to their opinion and fight for it. Don't let others judge you or make fun of you or even try to change your mind about what YOU like. In these cases, raise your middle finger and make it clear that you don't give a shit about what they think as long as you're content with it.

Bullying should stop. No one's better than the other, just because some people are pampered and petted by their parents and spoilt with money doesn't mean they can pick on poorer, quiet people. Just stop. They don't have the right. Fight against them and show them what you're capable of. I'm not talking about fighting or even getting to a point where you'd hurt someone, No, I'm saying use your brain. Outsmart them and then when you've accomplished something big in your life and maybe just maybe affected other people with it, you'll be the one standing tall laughing at them. 

Never give in, Work work work. Make yourself noticeable. Worthy. Make your own name. Let the world know you exist. You can all make something great out of the simplest things. 

You have my encouragement to begin with. So push yourself up and keep going.

Forget the haters and be who you are.

and never forget, ALWAYS FORGIVE.

                            Sleeping With Sirens;Kellin Quinn.