Stay Strong; You're not alone (♥)

" if you ever felt alone, if you ever felt rejected, if you ever felt confused, if you ever felt lost, if you ever felt anxious, if you ever felt wrong, if you ever felt wronged, if you ever felt unclean, if you ever felt angry, if you ever felt ashamed, if you ever felt curious, if you ever felt used. " - My Chemical Romance.

Know you're not alone.

I bet most of the time you wonder, why your life is so meaningless, why doesn't anybody like you or share your interests, why you are neglected and ignored, why you are so worthless, why you're made fun of, why you are abused, why you self harm, why you are suicidal, why you are alienated, why you have no friends, why you are so empty .. 

Firstly, YOU ARE A UNIQUE PERSON and you're beautiful. Yes, yes you are. The outside is just an empty shell, what matters is what is on the inside, that's the real you, that's where your beauty really lies. 

Secondly, you're not alone. All those feelings you have, all those problems and depression and self harm or whatever you're going through. Please remember, it's not just you. There are thousands maybe millions of teenagers suffering what you're going through. And I'm one of them. I've been suffering from major depressive disorder for two years now, i had this one friend i lost because of other kids telling her how she should stop talking to me because i'm weird and a loser. Every day my mom screams at me and hits me for practically no reason. I self harm, I even have suicidal thoughts now and then. I'm even writing this at my aunt's house because my mom kicked me out. She simply said she doesn't want me anymore. But I'm not letting that affect me, I am fighting.

I said this to make you know, that you're not the only one suffering. 

I know that "Life gets better and you'll be okay" sounds as a lie to you all of the time, but if you don't fight to make those words come true, then you have nothing. No matter how shitty and fucked up your life is, it does get better only if you fight.  

Remember that you have friends and family, try to be open and talk out what's bothering you to the most person you know who won't judge you or hurt you. Those people can make the healing process 100% more easier. Talk to a friend you trust or a family member and if you have no person to go to, counselling always helps. I started going to sessions two days ago and talked everything out and it made me feel so much better, just letting all the negative emotions and thoughts suppressed inside fly out. 

" I promise you, I felt so hopeless and I know you do too, but I promise you guys a thousand times, that recovery is really possible, you can get through this, you can over come it whatever your issue may be. "

fucking forget the haters. You see, some people, this fucked up society they want you dead. They want you to give up and hurt yourself  because some of them are cruel with no heart. They're the type of people that feed on others' suffering and misery, but in the end they achieve nothing. Because hate never gets you anywhere and if you hurt yourself you're just losing to them and they'll simply move to somebody else to torture when you break down. So don't. Stay strong and keep your head up so the crown won't fall and walk forward, because I believe you can do anything. 

And one of the biggest evidence that life gets better are idols. Those people who we look up too. Just think about it, stop whatever you're doing for a moment and think, why are they your idols? Why do they mean so much to you? Why do you look up to them so much? And i'm sure 80% would say the same thing.

"They had the same past, same problems and they made it through." or "They achieved what i'm trying to achiever or who i wanna be in the future." And that gives you hope to move along, and push through everything to become like them. 

Some of my idols that's inspired me to be the strong person I am today are Vic Fuentes, Austin Carlile, Oli Sykes, Kellin Quinn, Chris Motionless even Eminem. They all went through shit from self harm to bullying to losing a loved one to not being accepted to have a broken home to anxiety attacks to drugs, everything! 

But look at them now.  They didn't give up to their circumstances, they battled against them and won, they used all that sadness and anger and hurt and suffering into creating something beautiful. Art. 

They dropped the blade and picked up the pen. And just from this simple decision, they changed the life of millions.

There are so many things you can look up to and admire that'll give you the strength you need and in the process. You have to convince yourself to stay positive and push away all the negative. That's the only way you'll succeed. 

I'm crossing my fingers for all of you, because you're all special and unique people who have a great life ahead of you and I know you have the will within you. (♥) 

Stand Tall and Work Work Work!

Let's say I'm out of inspiration 'cause I've just woken up and I hadn't been sleeping well. I can almost feel my head throbbing but I just gotta make a point before I forget what I had in mind, like usual.

I'M JUST SO SAD.
I missed Warped Tour again. It's not my fault it's always held in impossible places, I just wish for once they'd make it close to where I live, I'm dying to meet my idols, Sleeping With Sirens, Pierce The Veil, Black Veil Brides and oh, of course, Bring Me The Horizon. You've got NO idea what I'll do just to see Oliver Sykes in his own flesh and blood! Recently, I became very attached to him, probably because his songs make me cry uncontrollably. It's just so honest and touching, like he can dig deep in you and pull out all of your buried emotions. I don't know what I'll do without BMTH. 

I've been even writing this long letter for Oli if I ever get to meet him...

Another point to make clear here, I HATE PEOPLE JUDGING ME FOR WHAT I LIKE.

Like, they have no right to judge me or hate on me for liking those bands/music or even digging men with piercings and tattoos. It's my personality, it's what I LIKE so deal with it?! So what if I'm not into cute little boys with bangs and striped t-shirts? And what if I like men with tattoos all over their bodies and piercings?

Let's be honest though, they're hotter, though most of the people won't admit it. 

I just think everyone should stick to their opinion and fight for it. Don't let others judge you or make fun of you or even try to change your mind about what YOU like. In these cases, raise your middle finger and make it clear that you don't give a shit about what they think as long as you're content with it.

Bullying should stop. No one's better than the other, just because some people are pampered and petted by their parents and spoilt with money doesn't mean they can pick on poorer, quiet people. Just stop. They don't have the right. Fight against them and show them what you're capable of. I'm not talking about fighting or even getting to a point where you'd hurt someone, No, I'm saying use your brain. Outsmart them and then when you've accomplished something big in your life and maybe just maybe affected other people with it, you'll be the one standing tall laughing at them. 

Never give in, Work work work. Make yourself noticeable. Worthy. Make your own name. Let the world know you exist. You can all make something great out of the simplest things. 

You have my encouragement to begin with. So push yourself up and keep going.

Forget the haters and be who you are.

and never forget, ALWAYS FORGIVE.

                            Sleeping With Sirens;Kellin Quinn.