I wrote those two poems out of severe depression. I barely made out the words, being German is difficult. I just tried to express how I feel through words as much as i could, since no one knows how I feel and i'm so tired of suppressing my emotions.
The Kingdom She's the girl
She's living in a rainbow She's the girl at the back of the class
in a high towered castle she's the girl drowned in black
dressed in diamonds she's the girl that never talks
and fed with joy picking up her backpack
and heading home
A beautiful queen
with a golden crown She doesn't say a word
sitting on a throne as she walks to her room
and spreading smiles straight to her drawer
where death lies
She starts to hear whispers
coming from behind A friend with razor-sharp teeth
her walls begin to shake soothes her skin
and the castle goes crashing down they laugh as she cuts her skin
praying for the end,
her tears stream down
Her dress is torn
her tears stream down
Her dress is torn
her shoes are soaked She hears them talking about her
she's in a darkroom behind those walls that close in
there's no one left around they're the only ones
who knew her story
who knew her story
she's the girl who's screaming inside
The sharp voice screams at her picking up bags of hate
her walls are breaking down every single day
she can no longer fight
it's hard to stay on track Her emotions claw at the exit
she can no longer bare anymore
She digs her grave like a tiger that grabs its prey
and runs the sharp teeth her thoughts take the best of her
across her skin
Picking up her only friend
The queen has died making the way across her neck
the grief is back the razor blade saved her
death has killed this kingdom
And now it's tracing another... blood pours down her chest
it's over now
... Ready for the kill. no more pain to go...
... Now she only hopes to be missed.
